After seven days I do not feel I have learned anything. More, I am sure I have learned nothing. English language as a besieged city offers me only resistance. I know less, no more. I am tired and flustered. I feel embarrassed while publishing my text full of mistakes.
—What have you thought? — I talk to myself — Have you been crazy? As usual, you have bitten off more than you can chew!
When you start a project often first several days are full of energy and optimism. You believe in yourself and your capabilities. But after several days something begins to change. And one day—sometimes a month, sometimes a week, sometimes three days, but always long before mastering the job, you know that honeymoon has just ended. You feel discomfort and something seduces you to quit or at least stop caring so much about your endeavor.
This moment comes almost every time: when you are learning something difficult, when you are writing a book, when you are adopting to the new community, when you try to lose weight or when you search for the new job.
And this is one of the most important points in your life. So much depend on how you look at your feelings.
Discomfort is real and normal. You need to quit is understandable. You cannot change your sensations. There is no magic stick to make it disappear. You can say to yourself: “Do not feel it, be strong and happy. You can do it”—but it will not work. Discomfort will not disappear because there is the ground reason for it: you are doing something hard, and your organism has not accustomed to it yet.
The only thing worth doing is to reappraise your emotions. Look at what you feel from a different angle: It is not the sign that smoothing is wrong, and that you are in the dead end. Quite the opposite. You are on the right track. You fell resistance so you are moving forward. Resistance is a sign that you are advancing, even something says to you: “It is too hard. It is impossible”.
Steven Pressfield in the great book “The War Of Art: Winning the Inner Creative Battle” writes:
Resistance will tell you anything to keep you from doing your work. It will assume any form, if that’s what it takes to deceive you. Resistance is always lying and always full of shit. The more important a call or action is to our soul’s evolution, the more Resistance we will feel toward pursuing.
We have to accept resistance. It will always be here—in more or less proportion. But it is ok. It is a good sign.
Of course, I can resign and withdraw from my undertakings, I am not a slave. But never because of my resistance. In the end: It is only resistance, let’s not dramatize. Feel it and do what you intended to do.